play it again, Sam

So I lost one of my jobs. Circumstantial yet, disappointing. I thought I had a free pass to carry on my existence, selling things to people as a means of procuring my lifetimes supply of comfy, semi-worn couches and spacious 2-3 bedroom units with hardly any water damage and only a few in house pests (but appliances are included!). This has proven to be not so. Not only have a lost one peddling job, I've found it to be in my most dearest and fervent interest to be doubly enthusiastic about my first job, which holds its charm only so long. This is bad. Horrible in fact. I was getting used to the idea of becoming lazy, fat maybe. I stopped going to the gym because I was just going to work more and look great doing it. I figured that the spider-veins could tell me much about when it was time to stop moving and sit down to my netflix queue and while away the hours in between getting off work and having to go back. How suddenly disappointing. What an unforeseen slap in the face. Now I find myself plucking at the gentle sting as a stranger to these climates might dab at a water droplet that has just marked his or her's first introduction to snow, and posed an inaugural question: "what is this?". It may be so that I am not made for talking. I am an anxious speaker and a careless listener, but this has not always been the case. I have been crafted that way to make the interested buyer agree with me. This product is useful. It will help you become what you've been wanting to become. This will make you a better person for buying it. These ideas have been contrary to my experiences. Experience is almost always a better purchase. Items are made to be destroyed whether it be by consumption, wear, ill-fated accidents, or the un/just hands of fate. It will not make any difference if you have it or not because at some point of time in the future (or past) you will have had it and it will be gone or you will never have had it and never known the difference anyway.
So there. It is said. I have one job less and a few days more to spend less money on things I would have ignored if I had the time to look in to them anyway. A less superstitious person would be at a Lark's envy to tell you the things they would and will or maybe won't do but I feel strongly that turning points are to be studied as well as tested before a destination is sorted out. Most times you find that your first impulse is correct, you just had to conquer doubt before proceeding.